So, I asked myself as nicely as I could, “What the hell was wrong with me?” I met some practitioners of energy healing and card reading, who I’m very sure had the nicest intentions of helping me, but it wasn’t enough to get to the level of where I wanted to be. I knew the issue was with me and not with them. Although I was very grateful for the very important hints that they gave me, I needed to get to the point where I had to realise that a radical change in my habits should take place. So I did. But I have to say, it also wasn’t easy. I still found myself in a period of vacillation. Oh boy this is hard!